Hi Concert Monkey,

 

Love is never what or where you think it is. It blossoms in the unfamiliar; outside of the repeating patterns sewn by old trauma holding onto the new.

 

My song, "Healing Tears," expresses a transformative moment in my sexuality, a moment of healing through intimacy. The first time I had an orgasm that made me cry, it was a scary overwhelming wave. I didn't know what was happening to me and I received flashes of images and memories – a sense of imprisonment from the past. The second time inspired this song, when I was with a person who had the understanding and compassion to hold space for my grief and joy. The place I am in now is miles away – yet still a brambly discovery.

 

Listen to the mercurial, vivid new song "Healing Tears" on streaming platforms.

Watch the music video by Gabriel Lapierre, which was filmed in my Montreal apartment, on YouTube.

My vision for the music video was to reimagine a video piece I made on my own during a lockdown in 2020. It was part of a queer erotic art project using funds collected from OnlyFans to donate to various causes.

 

The music video for "Healing Tears" was shot in my apartment with my good friend, love, and artist Eddying Jackson. I wanted to explore touch with Eddying that lives in a space between sensual and sexual. I hope that our soft queer embrace, captured by Gabriel, conveys the sense of safety and play that I am nurturing in my connections.